Monday

Well it is that time again for me to go back to the doctor, My appointment is Monday at 10:45 so wish me luck with that I will keep you posted

well it is this time of year again

next week it will be 12 years that my grandmother has been gone, I still miss her a lot and wish she could of got to know my kids. Sunday night we lost my uncle Roger. Thing are hard right now, and the I was told yesterday that I am doing a ham and turkey for thanksgiving fun

a review

yesterday I had to by shoes and socks for me, I live in flip flops so I needed something else and I got a pair of new shoes. I am doing this review for the socks I bought the are Eco Cool by Burlington and I like them a lot. the soft cotton and bamboo blend wicks moisture naturally. I got them at Sams club and for six pair it was almost 9 dollars

well I have not posted in awhile

things are going good and I have been busy with the kids, at times I feel like it is just me as the parent, I brought home a ps3 and the kids are happy as can be just wish the kids will mind today

A email from my doctor

Ms. Shock,

My apologies for communicating via e-mail, however I was reticent to leave results on your answering machine and I am rarely in one spot long enough for someone to reach me. The results of the pathology report on your LEEP demonstrate inflammation, but no cancer or pre-cancerous changes. Should you have further questions, please feel free to call me at (xxx)xxx-xxxx x xxx and I will endeavor to return your call as soon as I can. Otherwise, I will plan on seeing you at our post-operative appointment on 7/7/09 @1330.

Sincerely,

My doctor

After all that this is what they find at lest they were wrong and now just more test to find out what is causing the inflammation

one week

well it has been one week now that I had the leep done the healing thing is taking longer than I thought it would, I am still in pain and next week I go back for the follow up at the va

welll this morning

I got up at 6:55 and got ready checked what was in the bank, then saw I had money so I went to walmart, I spent almost 200 total, I bought Niakali and Natalia's birthday gifts. and got some stuff for the house, and a slip and side the kids are going to have a great time I even ordered a pinata so I can't wait for July 25th, also I got Natalia a pair of ruby earrings that are also gold. I got a dress and then a little pink car that she can ride and has a keybord on and other things that she gets to play with

kids

well the kids love summer break, I feel like I am going nuts and can't wait till August 12 that is when school starts here. Natalia is going to be a year in less than a year

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good morning

well it is fine in the morning and I can't sleep I am in bad pain and can't take any thing till after my surgery so this is life well I am going to try to go back to sleep now

I may have a down line for mia bella

I got a call the other night from this man who wants to start selling mia bella candlies well he had done it before and he was doing good at it so I will be working with him getting him started

well eight days till surgery

well I am counting down and just want to get this done and over with, I am going crazy and hate waiting, well at lest I am talking to my sister more now

full doctors appointment a long day

well things don't look too good right now the Doctor that will be doing the leep, read all my pap tests to me and in March it was low grade Cervical Dysplasia and then in May it was already high grade cervical dysplasia, my doctor said it may be cervical cancer by the time I have the leep on the 23rd. I also may have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome Friday I get the last of the lab work done for it, yesterday was a long day, my appointment was at 1pm and I was there at 12:30 and he got me in at 12:45. Then I gave him my family history and told him about my problems that I have been having and we talked about the leep, then he told me he also wanted an ultrasound so I said okay he is trying to find what is wrong besides the other, well then he tells me I need to stop by the short stay unit and do the paper work, well they had me do more than paper work I had to do all the pre op stuff and that was EKG, chest xray's and then go to the lab well I went to the lab and they told me I have to fast for 12 hours before the labs, and also it has to be the 3rd day of my monthly well that will be Friday so I will have them done in time and if they don't find all that is wrong and going on then he may do an endometrium, witch is lining of the uterus. sorry about being so long, I was at my doctors office for 5 hours yesterday

surgery date is

June 23rd. I don't know what time yet but I still have to get lab work done before then, I did the rest of the pre surgery stuff

do's and don'ts before surgery

is a list that they gave me and most of it is stuff that I knew so it is funny to read I will try to post it later

tomorrow I meet with the or doctor

well tomorrow is my appointment to meet with the or doctor. then I will have a date, also my sister and I are back talking her now ex boyfriend kicked her out so yesterday I went with her to buy dishes and stuff like that so she has what she needs she is moving in with her dad. so she will be at my house a lot more. Well that is all I have to post for now beside's this is the last week my Niakali will be a first grader the boys go back on my 29th birthday August 12

well what to read next

last night I finshed all the sookie stackhouse books, so what to read next I may be going to the library soon,

The VA called to confirm my appointment with the or doctor for Tuesday afternoon, lets get this done and over with.

well I finshed book six last night

I have seven but I haven't started it yet, I have had a bad morning waking up not feeling well at all Dan is cleaning house for me and I am waiting for some software to come in that I need to help a friend, I have been running to the restroom like crazy, Natalia is in a mood, and the two boys that are home are not listening for the world.

Niakali had a great time at Disneyland and his fav ride was the finding nemo sub ride. Tomorrow the older two boys will go camping so I will just have the younger two. Also just a Disney fact that most don't know Disney owns the copyright to the name Wendy.

By the way the candle of the month is Summer Love.

well on book five now

I started book five yesterday and I am trying right now not to open it as for it is 540 in the morning and the kids are all sleeping, Niakali is at grandma's and going to Disneyland for the first time today so I know he is going to have fun

book two

Sookie Stackhouse book two will be here today I am so happy, on a sadder note my sister and I have had a falling out do to her boyfriend again, he called my cell yesterday and clewed me out for leaving a message on her cellphone that I said that I called and that I think he is not giving her message's again, well I know last week he didn't give her at lest one message last week alone so what he did was out of glilt and I told him I would not be calling her phone anymore I will email her and that is it, the cellphone is in his name and so is the house phone so anything under his name I will not call

a book review

I started the fist book from the Sookie Stackhouse books and I am almost done with it and it got here this after noon I have the second on coming it the mail and can't wait to keep reading them, I like the show on HBO so I had to read the books so far I like them

two weeks

two weeks from yesterday till I see that other doctor, it is driving me nuts and I just need peace of mind.

on the other hand today was a good day dan and I have been wanting to get rid of the sofa we had and I got a call a friend was getting a new sofa and wanted to know if we wanted have sofa and love seat set. we said yes and right now I am seated on the sofa and our old one went to someone that didn't have one so that is cool

what a day yeah right

I didn't get much sleep last night then the boys got up extra early just my luck and Dan didn't get up so I had to, then my purse was in their room and everything gone, now the older two are not listening and I am over tired can't wait till bedtime plus I am in pain so I think I am going to the doctor on Tuesday for the pain if I can get in that day. there is one spot on my lower back that is killing me all the time now

Well I know where life is going to take me

in the next few years I am moving back to Vegas, Niakali was born there and I loved it there for the most part.there is always jobs and could work for my old boss. We are starting to save up for a house to buy

Well Niakali is having a hard listening day and he just got home from school, It is a warm day at lest it is not hot and I am having problems with pain. I am going to start working on my book soon as I get the boys to sit down and draw, Natalia is playing with her toys and her drum. she knows she is hott stuff.

well it is time

for me to start writing again I want to have the first 10 chapter's of my book done by the end of the year. I am still working on the order I am going with and the parts of my life I am putting in to the book. I think today I will work more on the first guy main in the book

my gyn called

CIN III -- severe dysplasia in normal talk stage 3 pre cancer cells, I will have a leep done to see if that will get rid of it I am in shock but I knew it wasn't good by how I was feel deep down

well today I find out well I hope I do

this last week has gone slow and I called my gyn's office and had to leave a message she didn't answer I need to know and now I am waiting for her to call me back I hate waiting

well I may have a real job

yesterday I took the manger test for walmart and if I get the job Dan is cutting his hours and I did pass it and Dan works for sams club so I would work for walmart and then also own two biz's

goodwill

Well I had a good idea this morning I have been wanting to go to the goodwill for a while now and so I told Dan lets go and I went to the one my mom used to take me to and it is now a goodwill outlet center I got a table and three chairs for 20 dollars I know three chairs it is missing one but I got three boys so it works out for now and the wood on the table different than the wood on the chairs but after not having a table for over a year it is nice to have one
Later I will post pics after I get out my camera

well I have to wait tell

I had the biopsy done and now my doctor is taking a week off so I have to wait tell the 18 to see what stage we are at so keep me in your prayers and I am going to lay back down I am still not felling to hot

well today was fun, not

Well there is this six bedroom house I want to buy ( Lizzie it is not 4th ave) it has 4 bathrooms I know it sounds like the old house but it is not it has a 2 bedroom guest house in back see it is not 4th ave. the house is from 1912 and was redone in 2006. I was telling Dan's father about it and then he asked how much I own one my student loan and how bad my credit is, He wants to help Dan and I try to get it yeah I almost fell over and then I could move my great aunt in the back house and keep her close to me I go see the house with in the next week and I just hope it is not the same day as my hospital thing

well Natalia has started to craw today well tonight so I have a mover now so help me she is on the go. now if she sleeps with this new found action. Also I maybe giving my puppy to my sister so that I wont have to pay a 500 dollar pet deposit this month. well at lest her son will be happy and loved having the puppy in her car today

candle of the month

well I am starting in some ting new and what is it you say, once a month I am going to post the candle of the month on here and May's is Sweet Pea, so if you want to find out more or want to check out my Mia Bella web page here it is http://www.natashashock.scent-team.com/ I love these candles and I spend 50 dollars a month on them my self well I have to go older two will be home soon and I have to finish cooking the chicken

Natalia's birth story late but now done

July 15, 2008,
Morning I went to my 39 week appointment I was 39 weeks and 6 days, I told my doctor that I was still not really feeling any contractions, and my back was killing me, he said lets look into an inducion date, he got on the computer and said tomorrow morning be here at 6 am. By the was I was still at 2 and high.
I went to lunch after that and enjoyed telling the boys their sister would be born soon. Dan fixed dinner that night and I made sure my bags where ready and in the van.

July 16, 2008
early morning
I drove myself to the hospital because I knew I would't be driving for some time. 6 am I was checking in at l and d. they checked me and I was 3 to four and low. so they started the meds and I was stuck laying there, I still was not in much pain and the boys where there with me not understanding what was going on. Then it was time for Daniel and Niakali to go to school and so Dan's mom took them and Dan stayed with me. when she got back I was 5 and low and I was getting the epi so she could not bring Tony in. It took them over 45 mins to get the epi in and then that was after they had to try to get it in like 6 times and lest I was not in bad pain yet. About 1 pm they broke my water. about 5 pm I was in bad pain and felt like I needed to push but the doctor was was doing a c-secn so I couldn't push and my obgyn walked and told my nurse to not let me push. at 535 I had to push I would not wait any longer and after 3 pushes not even 3 sets of three just three pushes Natalia was here, she weighted 7 lbs and 10 ounces. 17 1/2 inches long. born at 5:40 pm on July 16, 2008.

mad at gmail

this morning I have been trying to check my gmail and it wont go in it so I can't check my mail. I am very upset because I have bills to pay and the links for them are in my email. well I may change e-mail provider before this day is over, I do have a road runner acount through my cable provider so I need to start sending bills to it.

Natalia was wide awake at 3 this morning

I got woke up at 3 am to Natalia talking and playing in her crib, I got to move her to her room soon I just can not do it and Dan is pushing for it but I have a fear something will happen to her if I do move her. I need sleep. She is a loud baby.

Natalia's nine month doctor appointment

Natalia is nine months and bigger than any of my other kids where at that age, she is 27 pounds and 26 inches long.Time is going too fast.

Pics of the kids

Here is some picks of the kids Asher is the one in blue he is my sister's son and is 7 years old now and smart as smart can be. the one on the horse is from chuckie cheese yesterday and then just a few from Easter and time with Asher

well I am coming closer to Natalia's first birthday

Natalia is 9 months already. That means in in less than three months she will be a year, time is going to fast. She is getting so big I will know how big Monday at her 9 month appointment. She loves food she tried to take a piece of my pizza yesterday and loved it. She had fun at Chuckie Cheese yesterday. Time goes to fast and then to think that if I would not have gone to my woman check up I may have found out about the pre cancer cells after they would have turned to cancer. I just hope to live a long life and be able to watch my kids grow up and become men and a lady. I know that my kids know I love them lots. Well I will post more later I have kids getting off the bus soon.

I have been realy hard on Dan lately

Dan does a lot around the house but hardly helps with Natalia, well Sunday morning I was cooking food for the boys and Dan and Natalia was hungry well I ask Dan to feed her and he didn't want to well I went off telling him he needs to help with her. He did end up feeding her and changing her but I should have to yell to get him to do it. I know it is hard with the four kids and my medical stuff but when I am in the Hospital he will have all four so a little more will help him get ready for that day that is coming soon

well pre cancer cells are evil

on March 12th I had my pap done like two weeks ago I got a call from my gyn, well her number was on my caller id and so I called her back knowing what was going to be said, she was not in office so I left a message and waited for her call phone tag what fun, well I got her call and it was what I thought pre cancer cells are back and just around the two year mark of the last time, so now May 7th I go in for the colposcopy and biopsy. Also I have asked to just get the hysterectomy done with so I don't have to go through this again, I know that is a big thing but most of the ladies on my mom's side of the family has had cevixal cancer so I want to stop this now before it becomes my turn

what's going on with me

Well I am taking control of my life, I am working from home and most that know me knows that I love candles and I spend lots of money on them. Well I found the perfect answer for me I sell Mia Bella Candles and they are the best smelling and longer lasting. I keep more than a few at hand and I burn them almost every night, you know that black stuff that shows up when you burn candles Mia Bella has almost none. They are a little more cost wise but they last longer and smell better and in the long run are better all around

just another day yea right

This day started off okay till I was cooking food for everyone and then I looked outside and heard glass breaking. It was the glass for my diver side sliding door the side I put Natalia on. Dan was mowing and went over something and there went the window. Thank gos that Natalia was in the house with me. But now I have to cancel her 6 month check up and wait to go anywhere till it is fixed on the 30Th. I am not happy I am trapped in my house till then

well times are changing for me

With in the next few weeks I am starting up two home based business. the first one is Amway and the second one is Mia Bella Scent Stations, Inc. I have always loved candles and these are a better burning candle so I am going to sell them very soon.